Today I'm left feeling like the vacation's over. I didn't even take a vacation, and yet my heart feels like a deflated balloon.
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As you can probably tell from my blog, we take a lot of adventures. What perhaps isn't as clear (or perhaps it is) is that most of those adventures are free or very inexpensive. We're on a tight budget right now, and today I woke up with money on my mind.
I rarely talk shop here at Finishing the Hat, but I'm a freelancer. And I don't know if you know this... but freelancing is hard. On top of all of the work-gathering and work-doing, I manage my own hours, so I have to be my own boss. I have to turn down happy phone calls from friends, I have to shut off all interactive forms of communication (no instant messages for me) and I have to nix time spent online. And I don't get to blame any of those things on a boss. It's me, and if I don't do this, I don't make a living. And I need to make a living.
That end-of-vacation feeling has to do with the kind of work I'm doing today. I'm trying to line up some more writing gigs. I love writing, but lining up writing gigs... well, it's not my favorite. I can sell anything but myself, I guess. Plus, we're doing our budget update, which always feels like impacted tooth extraction. I dislike thinking about money, and I'd be happy if I never had to consider it again. I don't need all kinds of material things, or wealth, or fame. I just want to be comfortable, you know? To be able to pay bills and cover our needs. And in order to be comfortable... I have to budget. And line up gigs. So off I go. (Anybody know anybody who needs a great writer?)
The other important thing for me to focus on today is emotion and energy. I need to avoid translating the emotion I'm feeling into emotional eating, and I must make sure I translate this anxiety-energy into exercise-energy. At the core of all of this, I have to take care of me. How about you? How do you handle your stress? How do you keep your emotion and energy flowing in ways that help you to take care of you?